why can't you go on the road to colorado and start your life already? you can find a job their, so why do it here?
I have to save up before I can go. It’s highly unlikely that I’d be able to find a great job as soon as I get out there or a cheap place to live. I also don’t want to be in one place at first. I want to go up Cali and into Oregon and Washington in the winter time. So my plan is to stay here for a few more months (go out there late fall) and sell most of my stuff, get a job, keep selling my book, and fight the monstrous urge to go shopping hah I pay for myself so I’ve got to learn how to live cheap and save up. Then I’ll have enough money to drive out there and to last me a while just in case I can’t find a way to make good money out there or find a cheap place to stay. It’s not that easy to just get up and go when you’re broke. I’ve got a good amount of money coming in but I didn’t know that lulu pays you like a month and a half after you start selling you book…I haven’t gotten any of the money yet. It’s starting to come in this week THANK GOD but I’m struggling right now. I have $6 to my name and an empty gas tank. Everything is slowly coming in. So I’ve got to work, save, plan, then leave, then be hopeful that I can find what I need.
“But that’s the wonderful thing about foreign travel, suddenly you are five years old again. You can’t read anything, you have only the most basic sense of how things work, you can’t even reliably cross the street without endangering your life. Your whole existence becomes a series of interesting guesses.”—Bill Bryson, Here Not There: Travels in Europe (via m-anque)
“I strive to be happy; not just for a day, but for the rest of my days. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I don’t want to live in the shadow of another. I don’t want to let the attitude of others bring me down. I want to be healthy and strong; not just physically strong, but strong-minded. I want to achieve ultimate happiness and be myself. This is my life, and it’s my choice to make the best of it.”—(via m-edjool)
“I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has.”—Unknown (via pinkw0lf)